This is an apology. I know the internet isn't the most useful media for something like this, but it needs to be said, and I afraid that I won't be able to say it in person when the time comes.
So here it is.
To all of the people of whom used to call me friend, and I said same, I apologise. Truly, I do.
We fought, yes we did, and I am still angry at you, as I will probably be for a long time. You defiled my sense of trust towards you and gave me no reason to give you the time of day again.
But, in spite of that, I am no longer vengeful. At once, I wished to tell you that you were nothing and that I hated you with every fiber of my being.
At once I truly did.
But not longer. The anger, was so rightly justified in my mind, has faded into a dull pain.
I do not want to be held back by this, nor do I want to be so angry and sad anymore, because truthfully, that's what I had spiraled into, and I am done with it.
I am content with myself now, more so than ever before. I am moving on. I refuse to hold grudges.
So I apologise for not talking it out, not finding out why you had come to hate me so much, and what has elicited such a strong, and quick reaction.
But I don't want to know either, for what's done is done, is over now and we cannot change that. Not even if I wished it.
But I don't, and that is the other part of this. This is not a blameless apology, or a victimless response. You hurt me, and I did not, and do not take kindly to that.
But nevertheless, it's over, and I am done with it.
I do not want to call you friend again, and I'm sure you feel the same. All I ask is that we can be civil, and trade nice words when the time comes.
And I wish you the best of days, I truly do.